My motivation to write this week, like my motivation to anything other than sit and watch mind-numbing hours of Youtube, is gone. So I’m just going to complain about the woes of being quarantined. One of my roommates tested positive for Covid so now I and another roommate are quarantined together for ten days. I’m not going to pretend I’m some kind of social butterfly who leaves constantly, but there’s something about being told you can’t leave that makes you want to so much more.
The monotony and lack of divide in a day, makes the entire experience feel like one long blob of time. The only thing to tell you the time is the slots of online classes where you sit and attempt to listen to the muffled voices of your classmates on bad wifi. Then there are the meals. Each knock on the door reminds you it's time to eat. Unless you are me, in which case you forget to order food multiple days. Of course, it’s not like it’s much of a loss for me. Dining hall food is bad on principle, but dining hall food packaged up and left to sweat in a styrofoam box while it's slowly delivered, is almost no longer food. It is a soggy lump made to resemble food.
But the worst part for me is the lack of motivation. Something about the seemingly endless stretches of time with nowhere to go and no one to see, make me even lazier than usual. Yesterday, a professor said we must be getting a lot of work done with all this extra time on our hands. I could only smile painfully as I thought about what my screen time average will look like this week. It isn’t that I don’t want my work to be finished, it’s just that I look up from my phone and hours have passed and I’ve accomplished nothing.
People might read this and think I sound a little ungrateful. Yes, I am very well aware that people deal with much worse. Sometimes you just need to complain a little, be sarcastic, and in the end laugh it off. If you keep it all in you’ll be irritable and intolerable to be around. So let me get my complaining out of the way now, that way when I can interact with people again I’ll be at least a little bit tolerable.